Mornings in my house can be hairy. In fact they usually are. They are hectic times filled with scurrying, hurrying, searching and whirring. Mornings seem to beckon frustrations, emotions and total drama.
Some days my alarm clock sounds at 4:52 AM. I run four miles, have a quiet time, shower, greet my husband, wake the children, finish getting dressed, make lunches, sign notes, pack backpacks, fix a crock pot dinner and get everyone out the door. All before 8:00.
Yet still, even on those days, we are sometimes late. Late gets my blood boiling. When it’s my own fault and when it’s somebody else’s fault. Usually late is a combination of all things in the above paragraph going wrong. I mean throw some crazy rare cancer diagnosis my way and it's calm waters with smooth sailing but something as regular as missing the school bus and I'm totally ballistic. Why is it like that?
I get crazy. Emotional energy charges through me and in my frenzy I stop breathing air and start breathing fire. I start gritting my teeth and when I stop mean mama is suddenly screaming at the ones she loves. In these moments I hear lots of thoughts in my head. Unfortunately it can take awhile for my thoughts to determine my actions.
These verses all come into my mind as I’m morphing into mean mama. This saddens me and reminds me that I am like the Apostle Paul and what I do is what I do not want to do. I have such a problem letting the Jesus on the inside of me show. Do you ever feel this way?
For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Romans 7:19
The wise woman builds her house,
but with her own hands the foolish one tears hers down. Proverbs 14:1
A gentle answer turns away wrath,
but a harsh word stirs up anger. Proverbs 15:1
They sharpen their tongues like swords
and aim their words like deadly arrows. Psalm 64:3
Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you. Ephesians 4:32
A fool gives full vent to his anger,
but a wise man keeps himself under control. Proverbs 29:11
Do not be quickly provoked in your spirit,
for anger resides in the lap of fools. Ecclesiastes 7:9
And then this most surprising thought of all came.
This is the day the LORD has made;
let us rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Now I often use this happy day verse on birthdays and other happy occasions. This verse punctuates the days that I celebrate very well. But it has never popped into my mind on a horrible no good very bad day like yesterday. So when it popped I took notice.
God in all His goodness reminds me to choose happy when it’s hard. Just because mean mama ruled the morning doesn’t mean she has to rule the rest of the day. So no matter what your morning is like, choose happy.
I’ve decided to meditate on these thoughts and prayerfully consider my mornings. I want you to share your secrets. How do you get everyone out the door on time? I need your advice!