Folks, I'm tired. Those post-radiation good days have disappeared for the last couple of weeks. I'm sure they'll be back but the brain fog is crazy intense. Folks, we're busy. The end-of-the-school-year celebrations have started and we are winding up to wind down but we are still, in fact winding. T-i-r-i-n-g.
Life is hard. Yeah, the normal, crazy, chaos that is my life is just plain hard some days. Desires pull at needs and my head gets all messy. Messy-headed totally describes how I feel right now.
Messy-headed is how I felt a few weeks ago when I drove off from pumping gas with the gas hose still in my tank. Messy-headed is how I felt when I backed into a parked car a few days before that. And messy-headed is how I felt when a neighbor called to tell me the fire department was inside my house and there had been a fire. Messy-headed is how I felt when I took my son to baseball practice tonight only to discover he's lost his glove. And it's how I felt when my daughter just told me she needs me to drive into town tomorrow to buy her something for Friday and it's how I felt when I walked in the door tonight and surveyed the guts of my house on display.
Thankful-hearted is how I feel because there is no damage from our toaster malfunctioning and burning. Thankful-hearted is how I feel when I realize once more how life can change in an instant. Thankful-hearted is how I feel when I look around me and see evidence of the normal, fast-paced life of a large family. Thankful-hearted is how I feel when I remember that I am healthy and able to serve my family in love. And it's how I feel when I remember the maid is coming tomorrow (wink, wink).
I can tolerate messy-headed if I allow it to lead me to thankful-hearted.
All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God. 2Corinthians 4:15
What messes can you let lead to thanksgiving in your life today?
Sunday's winner of the $10 Starbucks card is Tabathia! Congratulations and enjoy some time to reflect and turn messy-headed into thankful-hearted.
PS I also bit the bullet yesterday and bought 12 sessions with a chiropractor... I'll keep you posted on messy-head's sure disappearance!
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