“Life is the end of life; Life, life and more life.” Eugene Peterson
Around here May explodes and summer happens.
Everyday makes me feel like a loser when I don’t post something of value, clean my house, fold my laundry, organize my pantry, parent with finesse, cook a healthy meal, leisurely tuck children in bed, paint my girls’ walls, unpack the last two boxes, finish my bio sheet, start my book proposal, swim 400 meters, respond to YOU my faithful readers, you get the idea.
Trying to capture the life I want in words also makes me feel like a loser. (Did I really promise Sandy I’d do this?) I resolve to do things like: mother with passion, clean with a vengeance, organize with gusto and train like a maniac. I push myself to express half-baked ideas. When my book isn’t written and my calendar’s isn’t booked and my reach isn’t reaching, I feel hormonal, estrogen-crazed, neurotic, and worse—lifeless.
And when I get lifeless, creative juices stop flowing because it takes passion-filled quietness for ideas to bake. Passion breeds creativity and creativity takes time. Time that seems to vaporize with May’s explosion and gives way to the wonderful, lazy chaos that is summer. Hooray for wonderful and lazy; but woe to the chaos that resides without the routine of school.
That’s when I’m reminded the goal of this life is life. Life. And I find life in the being. Not in the coming. And going. And doing.
And the beginning of being is being in His presence. And it’s in the coming to Him that I find the being.
Now don’t get me wrong. I have a shopping list for today filled with things like nails, wood putty and paint chips. So I can do. But first, I will just be.
“If we have a destination—in this case a life lived to the glory of God—there is a well-marked way, the Jesus-revealed way.” Eugene Peterson, Christ Plays in Ten Thousand Places
Be: You make known to me the path of life;
you will fill me with joy in your presence,
with eternal pleasures at your right hand. Psalm 16:11 NIV emphasis mine
Come: Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28 NLT emphasis mine
Become: And when God is personally present, a living Spirit, that old, constricting legislation is recognized as obsolete. We're free of it! All of us! Nothing between us and God, our faces shining with the brightness of his face. And so we are transfigured much like the Messiah, our lives gradually becoming brighter and more beautiful as God enters our lives and we become like him. 2 Corinthians 3:18b The Message emphasis mine