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Monday, January 17, 2011

Salad Week & a Made to Crave Giveaway

I’ll just eat salad this week and see what happens, I mused as I stressed about the coming high school tryouts. At the end of the week, my clothes slid on with ease and my confidence soared in response.

Even though I was the only one who noticed the difference in my body after salad week, it changed things. For one brief second, the voices that constantly assaulted me were silenced. The voices couldn’t argue. The girl they called fat, lazy, ugly and second-rate scum had just accomplished something difficult. I could control my weight. I stashed that information for future reference.

As the freshman fifteen crept on, I remembered how it good it felt to get dressed after eating salad for just one week. I resurrected salad week and joined a gym. This was my key to feeling confident, beautiful, and accepted.

After a few weeks of steady exercise and limited caloric intake, I was losing weight. My confidence began to rise. People were paying attention to me.

Just a few months later I saw close friends. Just one comment from one person gave me the validation I so desperately sought. “Looks like you’ve finally grown up, Lisa.”

I was hooked.

It wasn’t long before I had cut my calories to just 750 a day and increased my time at the gym. I starved myself for months. Comments on my thinness made me feel successful. For once in my life, I was doing something well. The price was high but it was so worth it.

And then I fumbled—by eating. And once I started, I couldn’t stop. After I ate that first dinner, ironically, it was salad, I purged. It was hard but I felt I had no choice. It started a vicious cycle that lasted for years. I would restrict all week and allow myself a meal on Friday night. Often times I would be so hungry I would devour a whole pizza followed by dessert. I would spend the weekend purging and then start restricting again on Monday.

I lived this way for several years. I needed to be noticed as beautiful. And thin. I was desperate to be noticed. I was a Jesus girl. I loved Jesus. I just wasn’t really sure He loved me.

Fast forward fifteen plus years.

I am a forty-year-old mother of four. I weigh 136 pounds. I watch what I eat, exercise and  no longer binge and purge.

Thing is, after all these years, I still have the same struggles. I equate thin with beautiful. I measure my worth by the number on the scale and the way I talk to myself would make my mama cringe.

As I sit holding Lysa TerKeurst’s book silent tears slip down my cheeks. I want to stop feeling like a failure. I want to stop beating myself up for liking sugar cookies and I want to think about God more than I think about food. Lysa promises her book can help.

And she delivers. This power-packed message is really just the story of a Jesus girl who wants to lose some weight and in the process gains so much more. Truths from this book changed my life immediately. Over the next few weeks, we’ll explore these truths and celebrate the changes.

I am currently reading Made to Crave again. I join Lysa on Monday nights at 8/7:00 CST for her FREE Made to Crave webcasts. Go here for more information.

Proverbs 31 Ministries graciously gave me two copies of this book. One to keep and and one to give away. Because I had already purchased one, I was able to give one to a friend already. Thank you, Proverbs 31! To enter to win a copy of Made to Crave, simply leave a comment. Or if you’d like to buy your own, go here. One winner will be randomly selected and announced next Monday, January 24. Please make sure to leave your email address if your comment doesn’t link to it.

Remember: “We were made to consume food but, food was never made to consume us.” –Lysa TerKeurst in Made to Crave

**Important: If you are viewing this in Facebook, you must comment on my actual blog to be eligible. www.lisasmithblog.com 

I'm linking up to Jen and the Soli Deo Gloria sisterhood today.

39 comments:

Sing4joy said...

I would be interested in winning this book!

Alyssa said...

Ah. This book is an answer to prayer for me. I have finally admitted that I have dealt with my grief ,of losing our daughter three years ago, with using food as my escape and comfort. I know this is wrong and I know I am using food instead of the Lord to comfort my emotions. I look forward to reading this book and beginning the battle to a healthier me, bodywise BUT more importantly rediscovering where my HOPE and comfort truly lies. With HIM! Thanks for your honesty and encouragement with your own journey! -Alyssa

Updating My Status... said...

I'd love to win this book!

Lisa said...

I'd like to win the book!! lmcmann4@gmail.com
Lisa

Jen said...

Would LOVE to win this, Lisa! I downloaded the sample to my kindle and need the hard copy! :-)

Anonymous said...

would like to win...
dkshort@yahoo.com

Kristin said...

I can't wait to read this book and would LOVE to win a copy of my own! Thanks so much for the giveaway!

kcardwell at gmail dot com

Saleslady371 said...

Hi, Lisa:
Your post was eye opening. Please don't enter my name in your give-a-way so the others have more of a chance to win!

I hope all is well by you. I'm still praying,
Mary

Lynn said...

Lisa, I would love to win this book! Thank you for the chance!

Blessings,
~Lynn

Charity said...

I am anxious to start my journey of Craving God, more than I crave and think about food.

Thank you for sharing your heart Lisa.

Lorraine said...

Sounds like a "must read". Cant wait to start reading!

Lorraine
raindelap(at)cox(dot)net

Anonymous said...

This sounds very promising and finally an answer in the right direction

Lora
loramv@yahoo.com

Deborah said...

Lisa,
I would like to win this book. I am listening to the website right now and cannot wait to read it.
Deborah
rejoicenrlord@gmail.com

Angie Love said...

I remember standing in your apartment bedroom, watching you run around trying to get ready for wherever we were headed. You said the most powerful words to me...that just because you were fit didn't mean you didn't struggle with food issues...your's were different than mine, but you struggled. We have been through so much friend. Love you!

Anonymous said...

Please enter me for the draw. I do not have a copy and I am signed up for a bible study that has MTC as its foundation.

Beckster said...

Hi Lisa,
Thank you for sharing your brutally honest journey with food. I too have struggled with food and weight my whole life. Lysa's new book sounds like an answered prayer to me! I love her webcasts and would love to win a copy of the actual book! Thanks and God Bless,
Becky

awcamp said...

Bless you for sharing your story and sharing the gift of Lysa's book. I, too, have struggled with food issues for most of my life. Ironically, now that I've been diagnosed with diabetes and have had to make some major changes, food doesn't control me the way it has in the past. But, when things go wrong, it's still the thing I run to. Praying that God draws you and your readers close to Him.

Ashley said...

Lisa...nice to know I wasn't alone with my past eating habits. I didn't have a salad week, I simply did not eat. I would eat a couple of bites and be full. Then I would go to my room and do 300 crunches. Every. single.day.
Ashley

Gretchen said...

Oh, girl. I could be the one crying those healing tears. Sounds like this goes on the b'day list if I don't happen to win it. Or, I may even have to treat myself to it before that. Love you for sharing. This is so close to my heart. How to find balance in an unbalanced world. And how to be that example for my overweight son and worrying to much-yet eating too much sugar daughter. Smooch.

Musings of a Homeschooling Mom said...

I have read many good comments about this book & would love to read it!

Jessica
lovindancin@gmail.com

Susie Daggett said...

I want to win this book
Sooze1008@yahoo.com

Anonymous said...

I would love to win this book! Once was thought to have eating "issues" and have always thought that I didn't. Perhaps I could learn more. (Miss you!)

Susan said...

Thank you Lisa for your transparency. The numbers are overwhelming; how it must grieve the Lord that we've listened to the lies of this world instead of believing the Lord about our worth. I include myself in that number. I'm so thankful that Christian women are overcoming the feelings of shame and speaking out against the eating disorder trap and for the healing of our Savior! May God bless you for giving away this book and bless the one who receives it. I do not want to be entered because I am going to purchase the book for myself and loved ones today thanks to your recommendation. I look forward to the journey with you and can't wait to hear of all of the victories to come!

http://mamomsusangrandma.blogspot.com/

Brenda said...

Would love to win this book. Just what I need.

Keleigh said...

What a timely book... Having never been tiny (and always having food issues), I've recently gained a whole lot of weight after a whole lot of losses in my life (mother, sister, infertility, miscarriages). It's time to make some changes and I've been struggling to figure out how. This might just be the answer. lists@hinano.org.

Amy Sullivan said...

Thank you for sharing your story. Your relating was so raw and powerful. I've heard a little about this book here and there, but thanks, Lisa for giving more of the details!

saner4 said...
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saner4 said...

I tend to use food as a comfort. If I'm feeling stressed...I have some chocolate or other good. Or sometimes I need something crunchy to get the stress out. Now I want to start focusing on what I really need...more Jesus!
I would love to read Made to Crave. I'm ready to stop my wrong-thinking. I desire a breakthrough.
saner4@yahoo.com

Jen said...

So glad you linked up today! This is a great post -- so honest and one that I think so many people (including myself) can relate to.

I haven't gotten Made to Crave yet, but I really would like to read it. I feel like there are still a few places that might need to be shorn up in me in regards to my past food addiction!

Leah @ Point Ministries said...

I can identify with so much in this post. I never purged, but I certainly starved myself and equated thin with beautiful.

I still struggle with mental aspects of anorexia, but praise God the physical starving myself does not happen any longer.

Thanks for offering this book.

leah

KELLY W said...

Lisa, my sweet friend, your blog has been such an inspiration to me since I stumbled upon it a year ago via Renee Swope! I honored to have met you and to be called a friend. You are one of the most courageous womman I know. I love you and thank God for a "happy" anniversary!

nightowl said...

I would love to read this book. It sounds like it would be very helpful.
winit6 at hotmail dot com

Grieser Family said...

Some friends and I are going to study this book together. I would love to win it! :)

Shannon Homesley said...

I'm about to start the Made to Crave bible study at my church and I'm so excited! I've watched the first two webcasts and I love the whole idea behind this book.

wem9876pt said...

I would be interested to know what this book says about my dieting. When I focus on counting calories and losing weight, I almost always sabatoge my efforts and gain. I seem to be able to lose weight when I DON'T focus on it and make a goal but rather when I change up my routines to avoid being around food.

I'm slightly overweight. I need to lose 15-20 pounds to have a healthy BMI.

This book just might help me approach taking care of myself in a way that is good for me and my family.

Shelly @ Life on the Wild Side said...

OK, I think I need this book. :)

Emily said...

Isn't is amazing what a mess we can get ourselves into? I have used food as a comfort for years. I am at my highest weight. But the worst is the conversation that I have with myself. Fat, nasty, and so on are words that I frequently use to describe myself. I am so excited to lead a MTC study in Feb. I feel God's gentle whisper telling me that He is the ultimate comfort. My journey has already began. I am so encouaraged by your words of healing.

Marla said...

I also already have a copy of this book, but would love to win a copy to give to a dear friend. Thank you for the chance to win.

koinonia572001@yahoo.com

Janice Mantell said...

I can't wait to read this! I love the God-focused approach she is using. Enter me please! :D