Here it is Thursday afternoon and I still haven’t given you any news here and for that I’m sorry. I truly am. The week has been a whirlwind that didn’t slow down to let me off for two days!
I endured the tests, iv’s, drinks and tubes. I endured the probing and prodding and even more radiation. I anxiously awaited my appointment with the doctor trying to cling to the promise a friend boldly sent me saying was the “perfect prayer.”
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. Ephesians 3:20-21
When I received her text I just started repeating the words, “Lord, more than we can ask or imagine.” I didn’t really think much of it honestly. I was just trying to not let my mind run wild with all the possibilities. The doctor had already said they were narrow possibilities but the reality is that having sarcoma at all is a narrow possibility.
Because that thought was the boundary of where I wanted my mind to go, I kept repeating the words, “Lord, more than we can ask or imagine.”
When the doctor came in he was all smiles and handshakes. He was totally what I expected last time and didn’t get. He was what I thought was impossible. He answered the very few questions I had. He informed me that one of his current areas of study is radiation-induced sarcomas and I was glad. He said he would like to start spreading my scans out a bit in order to reduce my radiation exposure. I liked the idea of that from the standpoint of reducing exposure and practically. This week was super hard.
Then the best news came. I asked him if I could ever be considered “cured.” He said it was a poor word but if it was a word he might dare to use at all, he would maybe one day possibly use it in my case. He reinforced the gravity of my situation by telling me he gets to tell one, maybe two patients per year they don’t have to have chemo and I was that statistic for him this year.
I left feeling very positive and yes, relieved. I felt every part the survivor.
Some of you have asked if I’ve been declared “cancer-free.” I’ve been declared “no evidence of active disease” and I’ve been declared “no evidence of reoccurrence.” I’ve received the best report I can at this point. The doctor was extremely pleased and he left me feeling at ease.
My next scans will be beginning to mid-January.
As I’ve said before even the best news at MD Anderson leaves you emotionally drained. I am drained! Like I summed it up on Facebook, “tired and good.”
Your comments blessed the mess out of me and your prayers continue to carry us as they did through the hardest of days and longest of nights. I count it all joy to serve a mighty and loving God with you.
God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us.
Glory to God in the church!
Glory to God in the Messiah, in Jesus!
Glory down all the generations!
Glory through all millennia! Oh, yes!
Ephesians 3:20-21 The Msg