Since returning from She Speaks, I have been reading a devotional called For the Write Reasons by Marybeth Whalen. This is a book written for writers. Specifically for those writers who long to share the message Jesus has placed in their hearts.
I am on day 6. I have wept over the three page devotional each day. I thought at first it was because Marybeth captures one particular aspect of writing for Christ so perfectly each day. She does but that is not why I have wept. I thought that I wept because I am gleaning so much from all of the talented and experienced writers who contributed to this book. They have but that is not why I have wept.
I determined this morning that I have been weeping because my heart is asking this one question, “Who am I?”
Lord, who am I that you would give me this love for words. Who am I that you would trust to string words together that someone might actually want to read? Lord, who am I that you would allow to speak for You, a holy God? Who am I?
The Lord answered me the same way He answered Moses many, many years ago.
You are not but I AM.
And once more, I was reduced to tears. I wept because the I AM is all I need to share my story. I wept because the I AM has chosen me. I wept because the I AM has sent me to you. I wept because it’s not even about how much I love Him. It really is all about how much He loves me. And you.
But Moses said to God, "Who am I, that I should go?…
And God said, "I will be with you…And…you will worship God…I AM has sent you.”
Exodus 3:11a, 12a, 12b & 14b