Today my mind is dripping with questions. That sounds a whole lot better than filled with worry, doesn’t it? I can give you a sample of my questioning because I promise to end on a positive note.
I’m reminded of this post about water so I pour out my heart and all the questions that are in it to the Lord. The questions about how utterly.insanely.tired I feel. My arms hurt. My hands hurt. My legs hurt. My feet hurt. My back hurts. My head hurts. That’s how tired I am. I haven’t been sleeping well (The upside is that there are barely any more boxes… I found that zip cord, took pictures with my camera and will post them as soon as I can get up off of the couch!). Will this tired go away if I sleep a whole lot tonight? Will this aching stop? Will I get an appetite again? Will the seller, builder, home warranty company, insurance company or my husband and I end up paying for the water leak that has sprung somewhere between my first and second floor? Will my children ever adjust to the changes we are going through? Will I ever adjust to my husband’s work schedule?
You get the idea. It hasn’t been a bad day. But it has been a deflating, tiring, trying day. My skin is a little tender. My appetite is nowhere to be found and even though I’m exhausted, I can’t sleep. Yes, tonight I will make myself, don’t y’all worry.
But the whole water thing… pouring my heart out, pouring my ceiling out… got me thinking.
“He reached down from on high and took hold of me; he drew me out of deep waters.” Psalm 18:16
The king's heart is in the hand of the LORD; he directs it like a watercourse wherever he pleases. Proverbs 21:1
Like cold water to a weary soul is good news from a distant land. Proverbs 25:25
Just some of my favorite water verses.
Just reading them, watered my weary soul. They were very good words. I may not have the answers but I have The Answer. And having The Answer is better than having all the answers in the world. Knowing The Answer is so much sweeter than knowing the answers to all my questions that I have now and forevermore.
Still, my mind wanders to the help I will need to get through this week and the coming weeks and I remember this.
“God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.” Psalm 46:1
Reading about my God’s right-there-with-me-always-ready-right-on-time help reminded me of this.
“I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38-40
Did you see what I saw when I read that today? Neither present nor the future. My nifty New Living Bible says this, “And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love… neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell (cancer, mini-floods inside new homes, nor emotionally needy children of very tired mommies) can separate us from God’s love… No, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
How awesome is that? I think that is the meaning of being consumed by Someone’s love.
Even before I hit publish, the phone rings. Our amazing God has met so graciously and abundantly met yet another need. Amen