That was good. That was the time I needed. Time I miss.
I feel totally renewed today. Refreshed. Ready.
This morning I am ready to accept my calling. My today calling to sit in a waiting room at a cancer hospital. To look for ways to share God’s goodness in that waiting room. To drive there in traffic. To drive home in traffic. To run as many errands on the way as I have the time. I’m ready.
I’m not just waiting. I’m waiting with others. Just as God knew I would wait, He knows the new friends I wait with.
He knows Pat who was on hospice a few months ago because Scott and White sent her home to die. Her sons who love her so much drove her to MD Anderson and demanded she get another opinion. The doctors have stopped the tumor growth with radiation and she is hopeful and she is living.
He knows Longeno who drives a long, long way to receive treatments and then hurries home each Friday so her sweet husband can work all weekend on a fishing boat to support another week’s worth of treatment.
He knows Donna who sings with a beautiful voice would be fighting to save her voice because cancer is trying to settle in on her tonsils and steal her singing voice’s beauty. He knew how sick she would be and how hard her treatments would be on her and her family. He knows.
He knows all the others who sit with me each day passing the time, fighting cancer and hoping this treatment will work. He knows them intimately. He has given me the opportunity to know them a little. It is an opportunity I do not take lightly. Knowing each of these brave survivors and their families has touched me deeply. It has marked me for life.
Realizing that the God I am so intimately in love with loves each of these people is humbling and overwhelming. Hearing their own miracles and stories of faith and love and fight inspires me.
I’ve been worn out from the drive, the fight, the struggle. Last night, I settled in to wait on the Lord. I began to pray for each of my new friends. As I poured out my heart for them, the Lord strengthened me. He is so faithful.
My time. Last night. Alone. It was a good thing.
“Sit in the place of honor at my right hand until I humble your enemies…and your strength will be renewed each day like the morning dew.” Psalm 110:1 & 3