We are back from the radiation doctor. The visit went well. He said the tumor was too close to the chest wall for his comfort and radiation would be beneficial. I go back May 3 and start May 5. I will give you more details later. We thank you for your prayers.
I am going on a special retreat tonight. This weekend and all the other weekends spent with these ladies make up a large stone in the altar of my heart. This retreat has become a pilgrimage in my life over the last 18 years. This is a place of freedom, refuge and intimacy for me. Last year’s retreat was the beginning walking out this dream of mine. I know it’s no mistake that the retreat is this weekend.
This week has been the hardest week second only to the week of diagnosis. So many ups and downs. I haven’t felt this scattered since finding out I had cancer, a rare and aggressive cancer and that my insurance couldn’t properly treat and wouldn’t allow experts at MD Anderson to treat either. That was a crazy bad week. This week was just crazy. Not all bad but certainly all crazy.
He knew I would need a resting place, a shelter from the storm of this week. A shelter for today. It’s no mistake the theme is this:
I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. Matthew 11:28
He knew I would need His ever-present help to comfort me after this week. After this day. This retreat is a place He is ever present. Very present.
I can’t wait to refresh, soak and just be. With Him. I hear Him calling me to come away with Him. I am ready, Lord.
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Psalm 46:1