By faith. Two words. Many before me. Just read Hebrews 11, “The Hall of Faith.”. It rattles off many men and women before me who have lived by faith. Great icons in the faith that are role models for me, they show me how to walk out this faith I have, how to move forward and well, just move in faith.
Tomorrow! Yes, tomorrow is our designated moving day. The two movers that were supposed to help us Saturday, both said they couldn’t Saturday but they could Friday. How’s that for God-organization? Tomorrow!
I’m sad because I don’t feel like I’ve had time to say goodbye or celebrate what was here. Yes, that makes me sad. All of the conveniences I’ve taken for granted here will be left untouched for yet another day, week or month depending on when I can get back to hug folks. I pray that this summer we can make time to just come back and say goodbye.
This morning the crazy-worry is gone. In the quietness, I just know it will all work out and there is no need to rush through it all yelling like a maniac (I am very capable of that, you know.) because after all, it is just a house. That's what my sweet friend Tara (I'll have to introduce you to her some time.) told me and she's right. It is just a house. I will pack the last boxes, run a few errands, hug the friends that stop by this morning and order tasty take out for dinner.
Tomorrow we will load trucks, pick the children up on the way out of town and sleep in our new home. We will spend the time we have there this weekend unpacking and start our new lives on Monday. We won’t be comfortable. We won’t feel at home yet. We won’t be settled.
And then I think about Abraham, Jacob, Moses, Paul, John the Baptist and even Jesus. Were they settled? Were they comfortable? Did they ever feel at home as they slept at night?
The answer makes me sweat because I spend lots (and lots and lots and lots) of my time trying to make my home a comfortable place for my family, a refuge from the outside world, the place they would most rather be. I’m not saying that’s wrong. I’m just saying maybe I should spend as much time training them for their heaven home. Maybe I should let go of my earth home ideas and follow the footsteps of my ancestors. Yes, I’ll try to keep that in mind as I pack boxes today for my next temporary home. I'll try to keep that in mind next week and the week after when the walls are still bare waiting for paint. I'll try to remember that as I focus on getting my treatments, getting my rest and getting well.
“But they were looking forward to a better home in heaven. That's why God wasn't ashamed for them to call him their God. He even built a city for them.” Hebrews 11:16