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Thursday, April 08, 2010

My Resting Heartrate

This time of year always finds my heart beating fast. Sports seasons begin to overlap. Everyone is worn out from the demands of homework and early rising. The sunshine beckons us outside in the afternoons instead of tending to the chores that keep us on schedule. We’re just tired. Ready for summer and tired.

At the top of my spring-rapidly-beating-heart list this year is my quickly approaching oncology appointment, impending treatment, sale of our home, relocation to a new one, my husband’s new job, our children's new school and finding a new church. Whew! I can’t make my heart rate slow down and I don’t like that. I wish all the fast beating would burn some calories! But since it doesn’t and it’s not good for me, I need to find some space. A place to go where my heart can slow down and I can breathe deeply.

I know that place is the secret place with Jesus. I just have to remind myself to go there. I want to learn to dwell there. I can find thankfulness in the fast paces when they force me to turn to Jesus.

Last night, my heart rested here:

“Help, God—the bottom has fallen out of my life! Master, hear my cry for help!

Listen hard! Open your ears!

Listen to my cries for mercy.

If you, God, kept records on wrongdoings,

who would stand a chance?

As it turns out, forgiveness is your habit, and that's why you're worshiped.

I pray to God—my life a prayer— and wait for what he'll say and do.

My life's on the line before God, my Lord, waiting and watching till morning, waiting and watching till morning.

O Lisa, wait and watch for God— with God's arrival comes love, with God's arrival comes generous redemption.

No doubt about it—he'll redeem Lisa, buy back Lisa from captivity to sin…

I've cultivated a quiet heart. Like a baby content in its mother's arms, my soul is a baby content. Wait, Lisa, for God. Wait with hope. Hope now; hope always!

From Psalm 130-131 The Message


Anonymous said...

Wise words from so young a soul. Obviously a soul blessed by God's grace. I read of the party for you friend and you. You are much loved Lisa and that is proof of your own goodness. Blessings

Andrea said...

When at the bottom of the barrel...HE rises up and lifts us out on the wings of eagles! May you soar with HIM, today!
Blessings, hugs, and prayers,

Amanda said...

Love reading your updates. You are an inspiration!

Patty said...

No doubt He has you securely in His arms. May the Lord bless you and give you strength through all you are dealing with right now. Continue to hope in Him.

Bernie said...

Waiting and watching is not so bad sweetie when you know God is always beside you and will always look out for what is best for you.
Be patient and rest knowing at the end of all of this you will be well........:-) Hugs

Lysa TerKeurst said...

Wise words my friend. I love the thought of resting in the secret place with Jesus. I go there often.

Praying for you.... Lysa

Donna said...

Lisa, another great post! A few years ago, I went through many changes including a move, new school for the kids, ultimately having to find a new job and my mother getting married. The only constant in my life was my job (although I knew I would need to find a new one in the near future - commuting would not work forever). I knew what was expected of me there. But everything was crazy! I can feel for all that you are facing right now, not to mention your health. Knowing that you need to find your secret place and get there where you can find rest, strength and peace and much more, is half the battle. Thank you for reminding us that we need to find our secret place when the world around us gets crazy. And thank you for sharing Psalm 130-131 like you did. It was beautiful! May our Great Shepherd lead you beside the still waters!

Know that you are in our prayers for your healing and that everything will fall right in place, exactly where He wants you.

Laura said...

I'm watching and waiting with you, friend. My prayers continue to rise like incense.

Loren said...

Praying Peace over you Lisa....know that as you sleep HE is ministering over you and your heart. The Secret place is awaiting you and the Lord knows your heart....HE knows all that is going on and HE will meet you no matter where you are or whats going on...

Love and Prayers to you

Denise said...

You are so wise and beautiful sis, love you.

GrandmaK said...

You have a way of bringing me to the CENTER. Thank you! Am off to spend time with my CENTER! My Jesus, the Center, bless you abundantly! Cathy

Ms. Understood said...

Praying for you, waiting with you.