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Friday, March 26, 2010

Jury's Out

Tonight finds me emotionally exhausted, depleted, spent, drained and really relieved.

We will wait for a written notification by mail to be sent within three business days. It's a good thing I am a professional at waiting by now. (That's a total joke. Even though I've had plenty of practice lately, I was still disappointed we wouldn't wait for their response in the lobby or be notified as soon as they'd reached their decision.)

I know God has heard our prayers and I've been vindicated in the heavenlies. We continue to pray Scott and White would see that.

I spent some time in the Psalms this morning and that's the word that caught my attention. The dictionary defines vindicate as "To clear of accusation, blame, suspicion, or doubt with supporting arguments or proof or to provide justification or support for."

That was my prayer. That I would be cleared from doubt of making the decision to pursue treatment at MD Anderson Cancer Center with proof and that we would provide justification or support for Scott and White to find favor in our argument. I feel we've done that and wait on their response and ruling.

Clear my name (vindicate me), God; I've kept an honest shop.
I've thrown in my lot with you, God, and
I'm not budging. Psalm 26:1

Please get up—wake up! Tend to my case (vindicate me).
My God, my Lord—my life is on the line.
Do what you think is right, God, my God,
but don't make me pay...Psalm 35:24

Clear my name (Vindicate me), God; stick up for me (and plead my case)...Psalm 43:1

All verses from The Message (NIV words in parenthesis).

Resting in His sure path tonight,


Joey said...

Amen, and Amen. Waiting with you, Lisa.



Beathe now in silence and solitude before the Lord. You have done your part - now He will do His! Rest securely in Him because no matter what this outcome, God's got your back.

He is above you.
Before you.
Pleading for you.
Beside you.
Under you.
Holding you.
Watching you.
Caring for you.
Within you.

Now one more time - BREATHE with a deep breath of fresh JOY!

{{HUGS}} Stephanie
JESUS ONLY in 2010

Anonymous said...

Waiting with you in prayer.

Denise said...

Praying for your vindication sweet sis. I love you.

Loren said...

trusting and knowing No one can Vindicate like our Father!! HE WILL ....HE WILL

Rest in HIM Lisa...Rest in HIM

Love and Hugs to you

Andrea said...

The jury may be out, but GOD is forever in control!
Storming the heavens,

Smelling Coffee said...

How awesome of the Lord to give you specific verses to continue to lead and confirm to you His plans for your LIFE!

Still praying.... Remember - it's exhausting to wait on something or someone (or a letter, etc). But when we "wait" on the LORD, our strength is renewed.

With love and prayers~

Bernie said...

I looked at the clock this afternoon and knew you were in a meeting making your case and I prayed for you and for your insurance company members....this is not easy for anyone but I know financially how much it will help your family for them to cover your surgery and other expenses.
Be patient sweetie, you have so many people praying with and for you and I believe God is at the head of the line.
Keeping you and your family in my heart and prayers.....:-) Hugs

B His Girl said...

Praying for the jury to support your treatment.
Trust God. Love Stephanie's words to you. The Lord is with YOU! Love to you, B

Sandy at God Speaks Today said...

Waiting with you too.

I love you.

Nana Jul said...

We wait in hope for the LORD; he is our help and sheild.
We wait with you knowing He's got you!!

Andrea Frazer - Pass the Zoloft said...

While you are waiting to be vindicated, validate yourself with some good chocolate and sleep. You deserve it.

Mary Moss said...

Cling to those verses, Lisa. They are His gift to help you as you wait on Him and His will.


kim said...

I came across your blog from a link from the She Speaks...I tried to read many of the posts from 2010, but it is late, so I must sign off...I just wanted to post real quickly about your post on Mar 20th (I think) on other's thoughts of the cause of cancer. When I had my bilateral mastectomy (xmas eve 2008), I had a chaplain say to me that some day I would say cancer was a gift. Well, the journey for me has been a tough one physically and while, I can't say that cancer is a gift...I can say the gift is seeing God in the midst of the Journey. There is something about being completely stripped and relying on God to carry you...I am praying blessings on a complete healing for you.

Andrea said...

I just wanted to let you know I got the update via email and I have posted a prayer request for you on arise 2 write. We are all storming the heavens with you, precious friend.
HUGS and lots of love,

Warren Baldwin said...

Lifting up prayers for you and your family.

Alleluiabelle said...

Sweet Friend,

Love you so much. I continue to raise you and your circumstances high up into the heavenlies to our Almighty Father. His Will shall be done.

{{{Big Hugs}}}

Teresa said...

I found you through Andrea's blog (Arise 2 Write)...your beautiful love for God in the midst of this is such a trembling, beautiful testimony! I am praying...don't know what I ought to pray..but the Holy Spirit knows. I agree with God's Word as you cling to with great fervency as the woman who pressed through the crowd to touch Jesus. Pressing through she reached with great effort, stretching her arm as far as it could go; meanwhile being stepped on, and BAM! She touched the hem of Jesus' garment.."if I touch Him, even at the end of my fingertips...I will touch Him; no one is stopping me...not even this crowd."

I don't know you in the physical realm...but in the spirit through Jesus...I know you! I love you...your sister and daughter of the King! Teresa

Teresa said...

Hi Lisa...I have been introduced to you via Andrea's blog (Arise 2 Write)...I am so blessed and blown away by your continual testimony as you abide in our Awesome God! As I think and pray for you...I am captivated by the woman who pressed through the massive crowd. She was determined with great fury and fervency to touch Jesus...somehow...someway. I imagine that she stretched forth her arm and hand so violently just to touch Him..."I have to touch Him." Her fingertips if they could have I'm sure stretched with such power and finally her fingertips met the hem of His garment. With great, passionate fervency I pray for you. I don't know how I ought to pray...but the Spirit of the Living God does...I am in humble adoration of Him as you reveal His glorious majesty; in the midst of this fight! He will vindicate you...but not only that...He is The Vindicator of vindicators!!!! I love you my sister and daughter of the King...you are lovely! Love your sister..Teresa

sarah said...

hang tight Lisa...He hasn't denied you...He won't forget...and He has doors for you to walk through that no one can shut. I posted a prayer button on my blog and will make prayer a priority for you....Stay strong ok. Sarah

Deborah said...

Lisa, is it true you were rejected by the insurance company...if so, do I have permission to post you on my blog for prayers for you and your family?
Thank you and I am praying for you.

Elizabeth Mahlou said...

I have followed your comments post-decision through Twitter, and the latest are intriguing. I hope the details are positive ones; it sounds like they are.

It would be wonderful if people like your insurers would suffer from guilty consciences, but unfortunately I don't believe most have the kinds of conscience that will trouble them and, in some cases, they are complacent about having done the right thing even when it is the wrong thing. I hope at some point you will be able to make this public for the benefit of others in a similar position -- through the media, through a letter to the White House, through a medical insurance crusader/investigative reporter, there are a number of venues. Also, are you aware that most states have an insurance fraud hotline; it works both ways, not just in the cases of patients and hospitals committing fraud but also insurance companies weaseling out on payment. I won a case against Blue Cross of Pennsylvania years ago by reporting failure to pay; it turns out that there were a couple dozen chronic care people at the University of Pittsburgh (and probably elsewhere in the state) with the same problem -- and Blue Cross got in trouble and had to cough up the money. Fight your fight to get better first, then go after your insurance company for the sake of other insurees. (I am convinced that sometimes God lets one person suffer so that many may be helped/blessed.)

Praying for you; often, God has totally unexpected responses which are better than our own plans/desires. I will pray for that to be the case.

Marydon Ford said...

Lisa ~ You may wish to contact your State Insurance Commissioner also ... they may be of great assistance to you.

I come to you, Lisa, thru Andrea. Prayers are lifting, they will be heard.

God bless, sweet lady ...
Hugs in prayers ~ Marydon

Rebecca said...

Mary Don shared with me your journey. Had to come see for myself.

God will make a way when there seems to be no way....

Prayers to the Most High going up for you, His beloved child.

Love, Rebecca