I got a package in the mail a couple days ago. It was from my friend Amy. Amy and I have had a long distance relationship for a long time.
Amy and I wrote endless letters through her summer in Indonesia as a foreign exchange student, through our college years and even into married life and babies. Over the last few years, Amy has written many more letters than I have. (cough, cough)
Because I can sometimes express my heart and feelings more thoroughly on paper than face to face, Amy and I have become very close over the years. Amy was my maid of honor in my wedding. We made special trips to meet babies, tour Texas and brave the snow in Colorado just to see each other.
We just had the chance to spend a precious and treasured evening together in December. I know we will both cherish that time forever. We have marveled over the past two and a half weeks how absolutely ordinary and normal that night was. There is such a comfort in ordinary that I think I have always taken for granted. Never ever again!
The night I told her I had cancer, we wept together. We just sat on the phone for awhile silently grieving. She said something so profound. She said I have no words only sighs. I’m so glad God hears my sighs.
Amy is a giver. She is thoughtful and creative and generous. So naturally, when I got a package from her, I couldn’t wait to tear into it.
What I found took my breath away.This is a charm that says, “Believe in Miracles,” on a hot pink velvet ribbon. It is beautiful and charming and it really beckons me to believe. I will wear it everyday along my cancer journey. I will only take it off when I have to remove metal clothing for tests and scans.
And on the days when I have no words and no prayers…
I will sigh.
But I will never stop believing.
Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God's Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don't know how or what to pray, it doesn't matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That's why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good. Romans 8:26-27 The Message