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Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Just a Little

One of the hardest aspects of fighting cancer is struggling with what the children can handle.

We told them mommy was sick, that I had cancer. We told the baby Mommy had a boo boo.

Then for the next two weeks, we talked on the phone every second of the day (and night at times) to doctors, insurance companies, political figures, family members and hospitals.

My children (and all children) are smart. They hear what they hear and even if you hide in the closet with the door shut and whisper into the phone, they know something is desperately wrong. They know just by the sheer volume of relatives and close friends who come immediately to your side. They know because the church is bringing meals in every night. They just know.

My baby boy started waking up at night and asking me to pray God wouldn’t let him get any boo boos like Mommy’s. My older children are struggling with explosive anger, uncontrollable tears, emotional outbursts, honest questions and plain old worry and fear.

It hurts me to see this. I pray that through this God would give them faith, courage and maturity beyond their years. I pray that someday they would be able to help other children whose parents have been diagnosed with cancer. I pray.

As I was talking about it with Andrew, well, more like muttering between sobs, I was lamenting that the children don’t have the same faith we have. We have a mature faith. A faith built solid and strong by lots and lots of life experiences. In exasperation , I sighed, “They just have a little.”

Then God spoke.

That’s all I require.

"The simple truth is that if you had a mere kernel of faith, a poppy (mustard) seed, say, you would tell this mountain, 'Move!' and it would move. There is nothing you wouldn't be able to tackle." Matthew 17:20 The Message

And I’m reminded that God’s call to greatness starts with a little.

If you're honest in small things, you'll be honest in big things; If you're a crook in small things, you'll be a crook in big things. If you're not honest in small jobs, who will put you in charge of the store? Luke 16:10 The Message

I pray they are honest and trustworthy with little faith and that it grows into a lifelong display of ministry and worship to Our Lord.


25 comments:

Denise said...

I am lifting your entire family up in my prayers, asking God to cover you all with love, peace, and comfort.

His Love Extended--Julie Gorman said...

Lisa...I so here your heart as a mother. Father, there are so many facets to this trial...Fill Lisa, Her Husband, and each of her children with incredible peace. Strengthen them with Your presence. Demolish all fear with Your perfect love.

Nana Jul said...

Lisa,
You are absolutely right, your little ones are very smart, and don't miss a thing. Yes they hurt and are angry and don't understand, but...don't let them miss a single act of kindness shown to you and your family...point each one out! They learn by example..they will learn to be compassionate, and loving when others go through hard stuff. They will be the ones reaching out and helping others up. Yes they will become much more mature in their faith than other children their ages..Deeply imprinted by God..and they will know Him!
God has them in mind too!
You, your husband and children are being lifted in prayer!
Love you, hold tight to Jesus!
Julie

Sandy at God Speaks Today said...

Praying for your precious children today.

I love you,
Sandy

Delesa Kendrick said...

Dearest Lisa, I don't have an idea of how we've connected but I'm so glad we have. I've loved what you've said in this article. Children and God... God and children. What a relationship! I have a son, who has walked through extreme times with me, and now he is a 12 year old full of 12 year old faith and maturity in God. Its true, God is so good. praying for you Lisa that in Jesus Name the path that you are on is covered with His grace. let me know how I can prayer otherwise. I would love to.

Delesa

Sheryl said...

how is it that YOU are ministering to me. i come here hoping to be some source of encouragement and i leave encouraged.

God is doing a mighty work.

love you so!!

Melanie said...

My prayer for your children, too. I think and pray for you and Andrew and your beautiful 4 every day! Every day.
Love,
Melanie

Faye said...

I am lifting you all up in prayer Lisa..My sweet mother use to tell me it was the darkest before the dawn..I know this to be true..I will be checking for updates my sweet friend:)

Kelly Combs said...

I'm so sorry. I pray your kids will be filled with God's love and the PEACE THAT PASSES HUMAN UNDERSTANDING. Praying for you today too.

mlfont said...

Lisa - You don't know me, but I am praying from Sugar Land, TX. A friend of Sue Tong's from school. I love this post, "just a little" I struggle with my own daily faith walk with our son's journey. Just what I needed to hear today, thank you for ministering to me today. I continue to anticipate God's best for you and am praying for you children! In Christ, Lara

His Girl said...

*sniffle*

brilliant perspective.... Praise to God!


xoxo

B His Girl said...

Praying for peace in the midst of the chaos. Lord please cover and comfort this family. Give Lisa and Andrew great wisdom for how to handle this with their children. Bind the attempts of the enemy to distract them from your purposes. Thank you Lord for their church family and all the help they are to them. Lord we also lift up Lisa's appt. tomorrow. We pray for healing as she begins the process for treatment. Lord we love her. May your Presence be evident as she journeys with you. In Jesus' name, the name above ALL others Amen

B His Girl said...

Praying for peace in the midst of the chaos. Lord please cover and comfort this family. Give Lisa and Andrew great wisdom for how to handle this with their children. Bind the attempts of the enemy to distract them from your purposes. Thank you Lord for their church family and all the help they are to them. Lord we also lift up Lisa's appt. tomorrow. We pray for healing as she begins the process for treatment. Lord we love her. May your Presence be evident as she journeys with you. In Jesus' name, the name above ALL others Amen

Runner Mom said...

Bless their precious hearts! You're right--they KNOW. I will be praying for wisdom and guidance and encouragement for y'all. I love the nugget that God gave you! He is so awesome.

I would love to go with you to Maui!! Hmmm....how many photo shoots and 8x10's would I have to sell in order to raise that money?? I'll be praying for you though!!

Hugs!
Susan

Smelling Coffee said...

Lisa~ I'm praying for your children right now! You are right about them knowing more than we know... and also right in the fact that God will give them what they need - just as He grows your faith, He will grow theirs.

Our family went through a physical tragedy 6 years ago with our son having unexplainable seizures. In watching us deal and grieve over it, our daughter acted the same way you've described your children. We sought counseling for her, and were told that even though she was 6, she needed to be let in on all that was going on. When we started speaking out loud instead of whisperinig, and when we sat down as a family and laid the truth out on the table, it was like a breath of fresh air blew into our home.

We all were able to grieve together and deal with what would come next together, instead of each of us working through it alone.

I know your situation is different, but children's reactions are often the same to any kind of tragedy that rocks their secure world. I'll be praying for all of you as you press ahead, and for your children, especially.

(And btw, the Lord healed our son... and he's been seizure free for 4 years!)

Jennifer

TRUTH SHARER said...

What a God-honoring post, Lisa. One that will be years in the making of what God will do with your volume of faith and their little [pure] faith!

They will learn to trust God - if they see you trusting Him. They will learn to pray and seek God's answers - if you invite them to pray with you.

I know yours are all young - but there is no better age to begin than NOW----- and the one thing they fear ---- is being 'left out' of it all.

It will help them grately to participate in your care - your prayer time - Bible reading together - James 5... "is any among you sick... he should..."

Father God-----
Your loving arms are wrapped around Lisa this day - but would show her ways in which she can communicate better to her children about all that is happening in her life and theirs? They are young, Father, but You can teach them about real faith and trust. Take them to Your Word, Father, in a children's Bible [perhaps] - about Jesus' healing [Mark1:29-35] so they can see and know the God that their mother an father pray to - a Healing God. Father, would you prepare their hearts to recieve the peace of God even before they know and understand Who You Are? Give Lisa and her husband peace for this Sacred Journey - even through the detour of this bend in the road. May it lead all their chilren onto the 'straight and narrow' for all eternity - through Christ!
In JESUS' Holy Name, Amem.

{{Hugs}} Stephanie
JESUS ONLY in 2010

Deborah said...

OH Lisa, I am so sorry about your diagnosis. I am going to be praying for you and your family. Thank you for your kind comments about Penny. She is able to talk and very slightly, she lost one/half of her tongue and her tonsil. She has squamus cell carsenoma of the tongue and tonsil. I took your button and thank you for taking Penny's. I will be praying for you.

Teresa @ Grammy Girlfriend said...

Praying for peace in this storm.....and that the childrens hearts will be protected...

nancygrayce said...

It really is so wise to tell your children as much as they can handle....because their imaginations will go wild if you don't.

I pray they will see that these many expressions of love and care are because God is so faithful!

Praying for you all!

LisaShaw said...

Remaining in prayer for you and your entire family. All my love...

sonja said...

Praying so specifically for your children, every morning. My slot on the prayer wall has become such a blessing to me Lisa. Just know, your precious ones are being prayer for many times over, and you and hubby too!

Love & hugs, specific prayers for tomorrow morning.

Sonja

Christiana said...

What precious children you have.

You're all in my prayers, sweet Lisa.

Anonymous said...

I've been praying for your children, too: that God would provide peace, that just the right people would be with them to provide comfort, that they would understand how much they are loved, and that God would fill the gaps during the times that you must be absent. I'll keep praying...

Hugs,
CathyT

Susan said...

Thanks Lisa for teaching us all what true faith and trust looks like.

Praying for your family and for you.

May God go before you each step of the way♥

Bernie said...

Your beautiful children are frighten and confused....trust God to comfort them and that he will provide support, love and understanding people around them. You have given them love, hope and their Faith will grow....I am lifting all of them in prayer Lisa, God bless all of you...Hugs