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Monday, January 25, 2010

It's Cancer

Two words no doctor wants to say. Two words no patient wants to hear. Two words I heard this evening.

The good news is I’m living. The bad news is I’m living with cancer right now.


I feel like I need to go to a meeting and stand and say, “Hi, my name is lisasmith and I have cancer.” Weird.

I would be lying to say I’m not scared. The truth is I’m terrified and unsure and don’t know what the next steps will be.

But God.


God does and that is where I’m resting my feet. I am planting them firmly on His promises of hope and a future.

This morning in my prayer time I felt the Lord telling me to pay attention to the patterns in prayer. I knew He was talking about my children. My children have been attacked at the very points where I know God wants to use them.

Even when I was writing my post The Lunch Table, I felt like the Lord was showing me that the reason I was in speech therapy for so many years growing up was because the enemy was trying to steal my voice. Literally.

I went for an entire four months during college that I couldn’t speak because the nodules on my vocal chords were acting up so badly. I was diagnosed with voice nodules when I was in the fifth grade. Basically, I lose my voice. A lot.

I always thought it was because I talked too much. Now I believe it’s because God has given me a message and the enemy does not want it to be heard.
As I face this attack on my womanhood, I know that it is because I have been given the privilege of touching the heart of other women. As I face this attack on my life, I know it is because I have a reason to live.

So with the Lord of Hosts on my side, I will fight this battle and win!
The “information” is (and this doesn’t mean a whole lot to me so if you have any medical insight, please share.) What the doctor knows so far is that I have a sarcoma, unusual and rare to the breast, not the most common form of breast cancer. The complete pathology report is not ready because the pathologist needs to run more tests on my tissue to determine what type of sarcoma it is, but should be by the end of the week. I will see a surgeon ASAP for a lumpectomy and tissue and lymph node sampling, then an oncologist for staging and a course of treatment.

Please pray for the doctors and the pathologist. Please pray for wisdom and hope and strength. Please pray I would make the most of this “opportunity” and bring God more glory than I could any other way. Please pray for my husband, Andrew and my children Julia (10), Alyssa (8), Hunter (6) and Palmer (3). For my parents, extended family and loved ones.

Please pray that my words don’t leave. When I’m stressed, tired or sick, they tend to go. Pray I fight this battle well and that the Messiah, King of messes would use my mess to make a message of hope. Pray that this test will give way to a beautiful testimony and that many will see and hear and put their trust in our very good and loving God.

I called you…Telling you, ‘I've picked you. I haven't dropped you.'
Don't panic. I'm with you. There's no need to fear for I'm your God.
I'll give you strength. I'll help you. I'll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you. Isaiah 41:9-10 The Message


54 comments:

Alleluiabelle said...

My Sweet Friend,

It is 1:41 A.M. and I couldn't sleep and just came in my computer room to check my blog site when I saw the title of your post.

I'm standing firm on God's Word and kneeling in deep fervent prayer as I finish this comment for you. My sister meets with her OBGYN Surgeon Oncologist this Wednesday for the first time to see what's exactly going on with her since she was just told a few days ago she has Endometrial Adenocarcinoma (Cancer in her uterus). Like you, I remember her relaying to me that those two words no woman wants to hear.

My mind, heart and prayers are with you both as you walk this out right now with Jesus at your sides, orchestrating everything, every single step and preparing your ways.

OH FATHER, I BELIEVE...I BELIEVE IN THE HEALING BLOOD OF OUR LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST. I BELIEVE...I BELIEVE IN THE MANIFESTATION OF YOUR DIVINE INTERVENTION AND COMPLETE HEALING IN MAKING THESE TWO WOMEN WHOLE AND HEALTHY LEAVING NO TRACES OF CANCER AT ALL IN THEIR BODIES. FATHER I BELIEVE...I BELIEVE AND I PROCLAIM HEALING AND PEACE THIS NIGHT AND THANK YOU IN ADVANCE FOR THE MIRACLES THAT ARE ABOUT TO TAKE PLACE IN JESUS PRECIOUS NAME I PRAY. AMEN. YOUR WILL SHALL BE DONE FATHER AND I PLACE OUR FAITH, HOPE, LOVE AND TRUST IN THAT.

I love you Lisa and thank you for your kind and endearing comments on my site. You encourage me so much in my walk with the Lord. I hope that I can do the same for you as well as I stand with you in strong faith in our Lord and what He can do.

Big Hugs to you my friend,
Alleluiabelle

LisaShaw said...

Hi Lisa,

Your text woke me just after midnight and I got up and immediately began to pray for you. I decided to come on line now to send you an Email as I didn't want to text back and disturb you but I was glad to see that you had posted about it so rather than send an Email I came right over here to tell you that I am STILL praying for you and you are healed and whole in JESUS NAME!!!

I'm fighting along side of you in the prayer room and I'm trusting GOD for you right now.

Your words are right on target Sister: "So with the Lord of Hosts on my side, I will fight this battle and win!"


YOU HAVE THE VICTORY IN JESUS NAME!!! I'm convinced! Sold out on Jesus and sold out on His word and no weapon formed against you shall prosper in the Name of Jesus! I curse that cancer at it's root in JESUS MIGHTY NAME! I speak LIFE LIFE LIFE LIFE OVER YOU IN JESUS NAME!!! May the LORD's healing touch and strength wash over your entire body.

May your mind be at peace..the Peace that only JESUS can give.

May your family walk in that same Peace for HE IS PERFECT PEACE.

I pray the anointing of the HOLY SPIRIT over your doctors and all who are involved in your care. May the Hand of the LORD lead them all.

I'm standing in prayer with and for you.

GOD LOVES YOU!!! You are HIS!!!

I love you.

Denise said...

Sweetie, I love you, and so does our heavenly Father. I believe you will receive healing. By His stripes, you are already healed. Stand faithful in this battle, I will gladly stand with you sis.

care-in said...

"I am planting them firmly on His promises of hope and a future"...that is what will carry you through. I admire your heart and courage to share it.

angie128 said...

Lisa -

Praying. Praying. Praying.

Isaiah 43:2

Angie

LisaShaw said...

I came back over dear one this morning before we leave for medical appts to tell you again that "No weapon formed against you shall prosper" in the Name of Jesus! I'm praying with and for you and will continue to pray the Word of GOD over you.

Abba Father loves you.
Jesus adores you.
The Holy Spirit is in you and He is leading you in all Truth.

I love you. I touch base soon but I will keep praying.

Lisa said...

I stand with you Lisa in prayer! Already by your testimony and statement of faith, God is being glorified.

As sisters in Christ we stand shoulder to shoulder, arm in arm walking with you, holding you up and waging war against the enemy.

Believing God for your healing!

Denise @ A Sacred Longing said...

Lisa, I will pray for you, your family, doctors - healing, strength, comfort and peace. I will pray that your "voice" not leave you but that your words be stronger than ever before.

When your knees begin to wobble and your voice begins to crack rest my friend, in the strength of the grip of the One who holds you tightest!


In my devotion this morning I read this Psalm, I can't help but share it now.

"Even in darkness light dawns for the upright, for the gracious and compassionate and righteous man...He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord. His heart is secure, he will have no fear; in the end he will look in triumph on his foes." Psalm 112:4,7-8 NIV

Stand fast my friend in this dark moment. As your eyes adjust, you will see the Light shine forth.

In His Grace,
Denise

Jen said...

You will be in my prayers. God is amazing and you are definitely in good hands with him by your side.

We are all praying for you :)

B His Girl said...

Oh Lisa,

Hugs right now. I am so sorry you heard those words. You probably are numb. The Lord is with you Lisa. I love the words of the Isaiah passage. He will give you strength as you defeat this foe. Lean on the Lord. We will lift you up in prayer and your family. I will also pray for the medical team for the course of treatment. You do have a message. I know God will honor your request and others will see Jesus in you. He loves you and we do also. B

Brian & Sarah said...

Lisa, there are no words but simply yearnings of my heart to praise our King for all things work for the good of those who LOVE HIM. You have such a support team in College Station and all over the world. I will lift you up today with prayers of THANKSGIVING for your "go get 'em" attitude and your heart that serves HIM. He is with you always and will NEVER forsake you. <3

the wild raspberry said...

so sorry to hear this.

i despise this terrible disease.

may god give you lots of strength~physically and emotionally as you begin your battle against the cancer.

sending up prayers for you~

chasity

His Girl said...

Oh my sweet sister!

How do I even comment?

I am JUST SO FURIOUS that stupid satan is resorting to THIS to try and shut you down...

and I am AMAZED, AWESTRUCK, AND BLESSSED to have seen God preparing you even in the weeks prior to this news.

That tells me this: He's with you now. He'd going to fight this battle for you...

and He'll use this for His glory.

satan SHALL NOT win this one.

xoxoxoxoxoxo

Andrea said...

Standing with you in prayer! Standing! Our Christ who turns water into wine will turn your situation to His glory. I am so sorry you had to hear those words! Sending you HUGE hugs, may you feel His arms around you in peace and grace.
Will being praying!!
Bless you

Gretchen said...

You are precious in His sight. And in ours. He will not be silenced, & we stand storming heaven on your behalf. Will pray over all that you asked, & am praising, through tears, our Father, for your testimony.

Tiffani said...

Oh Sweet Lisa,
I know we just met but I am so glad and I was on my knees praying for you last night and woke up to this post.

God is Mighty to Save, friend. Let him quiet you with His love. My sister went through a different cancer treatment this summer and I was by her side the whole summer and one thing I learned is to not borrow trouble. Stay in this moment (as hard as it is, but I'll be praying over that).

I cannot imagine the bevy of emotions you are having. I am already proud of your courage, girl.

Praying for you and your family each and every.day.

Much Love!

ps--did you know I have a "Julia" too? she's "JuJu" most of the time!!

Kellie said...

Sweet Lisa,

I will be praying for you. And for your precious kiddos and your family.

You are not alone.

With love,
Kellie

Cherie Hill said...

Lisa...I am adding you to my daily prayer list...and yet, I wish I could do more to give you peace. I pray that the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will consume you and that His presence will be more real to you than ever before. Hold fast to His Promises...
Zepheniah 3:17
"The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love,he will rejoice over you with singing."

Sending love and prayers,
Cherie

whimzie said...

Lisa, I've been more of a bystander than a participant in the Safari so far, but I wanted you to know that I will pray for you.

sonja said...

Lisa, my sweet friend:

I know this is not what you wanted to hear, and I didn't either.
BUT...GOD..., as you said.

Here you are right in the middle of it,USING YOUR VOICE, and your voice has not been dimmed. God already knew all about this, and HE is the great physician!

Lisa, your feet are firmly planted, and your faith is bold.

I have watched you "Be still and KNOW that He is God"... even when you are in the midst of a busy life....
It is such a joy for us to be able to walk alongside of you, praying, loveing you, and more than all...TRUSTING for GOD to both heal and restore...completely.

Father, fill Lisa with your peace and the unexplainable certainty that you have everything under your control, and that you are just as much the healer right now, today, as you were while you walked on this earth. Give rest of mind and heart to Lisa and her husband and family. May YOU be glorified in every step of this walk. Teach them, and teach all of us, more of who you really are and how completely trustworthy are your promises.

I love you my friend, and by day and by night, my prayers are going to be with you.

Sonja

Jen said...

I've sat here trying to think of something wise or comforting to say....yet I cannot think of anything other than I know that God is on His throne, He loves you with an unfailing love, and I will pray for you --- for strength, for courage, for peace, for healing, for joy and laughter and love and so much more.
Our God is a God of miracles. The God who made the sun stand still for Joshua is the same God who is with you right now, as you are digesting and absorbing this news...
Much, much love to you and your precious family. And even more prayers....
xoxoxoxo

Vindiciti said...

Hello.
I'm new to your blog. I followed a link begging for prayer on FB posted by Amber. I saw the "It's Cancer" in the title and hopped over since cancer is all over women in my family. My mom is a breast cancer survivor, and so is my Gigi. Gigi isn't as lucky, though, because she has also had skin cancer, kidney cancer, and now has spine and brain cancer. We don't think she will make it this time, but God is bigger than the cancer. Also, my Great Uncle was supposed to have died 15 diagnoses ago from terminal cancer over the last 12 years. He's still with us.

Thank you so much for sharing your story so beautifully. Locally, I know of an amazing woman who (not to scare you) has breast cancer. She got to ring the bell (treatment complete), but then got another call. She's been back in multiple times. All the while, she continues to glorify God in how she handles this. I wanted to let you know right now, that I'm praying that you can be to everyone you know (and some you don't even realize) what she is to us. She is such living proof of God, even being near her gives me goosebumps. Sometimes, I just walk over and say hello to be near her.

I will be praying for you, for sure, and am now a follower. I know that this must be an extremely hard way to glorify God, but he wouldn't have picked you if it was too much for you.

Praying the Lord's strength on you.
Your new follower,
Mary

annie's eyes said...

Oh Lisa. Your name just went on the top of my prayer list. Breast cancer has touched my life in several ways, so I know some wonderful people you can talk with for that part. It is a lonely road that you walk down hand in hand with Christ Jesus. If you need doctors' names or a second opinion, or a sister who's dealing with cancer, I know some very courageous and compassionate women. My own journey led to a double mastectomy, but God spared me from cancer. It's a strange God story but too long and personal to write here. Call me, sweet friend, when and if you want to talk. Also, Bev Brandon would be a good one to talk to both for info and for a Christian woman's perspective. My home # is 281-320-8758. Love and prayers, Annette

kristak9 said...

Hi Sweetheart! I don't believe we know each other, but we do have something in common (well two things) God and cancer. I had breast cancer last year. It was stage 2A. I had a lumpectomy, my margins were clear and a benign primary limp node. After the Oncotype test it was determined radiation was the treatment to follow. I had an MRI the first of this month and it came back negative. If it were not for my church and all the praying friends and family I don't know how I would of managed. What the devil means for evil, God will use for good! I know I went through what I did so I can help other women going through the same thing. Please, if you would like to talk more or in person, I would love to pray with you and share with you how God pulled me through my cancer. E-mail me @ kristak9groom@hotmail.com God Bless you sister through this trial. Remember it is the refining fire that he goes through with you! That always helped me! Much love, Krista

Kelly Combs said...

I'm so sorry to hear this. I hate cancer. But God is good, and he will stand with you. Be blessed! And your sweet family too.

Melanie said...

Oh Lisa. No. This can't be real.
I love you and I WILL BE PRAYING.
Do ALL the medical stuff you can do. Do ALL the "natural/health" stuff you can do. DO IT ALL.
Love you.

Robin said...

Another participant in the Daniel Safari that is standing beside you in prayer. We serve a mighty God and I consider it a priveledge to lift you and your family up to him in prayer.

ashley said...

Oh Lisa!!! I'm crying as I read this. You are such a strong woman, and your perspective is amazing. I'm praying. I love you!!!!!!

......Ashley O

Cindy Bultema said...

Oh dear Lisa!! I am praying! I'll comment later ~ but for now will get on my kness and PRAY!!!

May you sense His presence and His peace in undeniable, visible ways today.

You are not alone.
Cindy :)

JoAn's Place said...

Dear Lisa,
I know we have just only met through the internet and the "Safari" study. What a privilege and and honor to meet such a women after God's own heart, your voice will not be silenced (especially through your blog) You lift up and support so may people with your encouraging and heartfelt words.
I can't even begin to know what you are going through but, I stand with you in prayer with all these other women in agreement to heal you completely of this cancer and that our Holy Father will be glorified. It is also an honor to lift up your family in prayer. What the Lord has been teaching me through Daniel is to stand strong in your faith do not let anything deter you from that and He is faithful to get you through it. You are in His hands and will never fall out.

Lord,
I ask for Peace, Comfort, Strength for Lisa and her family right now, surround them with your LOVE. Give the Dr. the Pathologist and anyone else that comes in contact with Lisa wisdom and direction, I pray they will all be touched by You through Lisa and this journey You will be on together, because I know you are right there with her and will never leave her side. I thank you and praise you for all that you are about to do with this family and the people they come in contact with, it is in Your Holy name I pray. Amen!
Psalm 84,11-12 , " For the Lord God is our sun and our shield. He gives us grace and glory. The Lord will withhold no good thing from those who do what is right. O Lord of Heaven's Armies, what joy for those who trust in you."

Jenster said...

Hello. I'm Jen (Jenster) and Amber (HisGirl) sent me over here. I'm supposed to be doing the Daniel Study, but life keeps getting in the way. *sigh*

Anyway, I heard those exact words almost 5 years ago. Lame, lame, lame. As you know (and I'm so thankful you do) God is much bigger than some stupid ol' cancer cells. And you're right. He will work this to His very great purpose.

If you ever have any questions or just want to talk to someone who really, truly gets it, please don't hesitate for a nanosecond to email me. That's part of my reason!

I will keep you in my prayers. Satan's in for a rude awakening when he figures out God's glory is going to be revealed just that much more through you!!

Jen (jdbookwriter@yahoo.com)

Whoobie said...

Lisa,

I am a Safari Sister. I just read your blog, and I am Amazed at the perseverance in your words. I pray for you my Sister in Christ that a healing would be done. I pray for strength and endurance. I pray for your precious family that they would lean unto Jesus for Comfort. I pray for the Doctors that they would be guided by the One and Only Perfect Physician Jesus Christ. You will be in my continued Prayers

Jenn said...

Hi again Lisa, After I sent you the message I saw Amber's status on FB so I came over. I know I told you this earlier, but KNOW that my prayer is that God will keep you and your sweet family on my heart so I can lift you up daily. Thank you for continuing to be His Vessel so He can speak through you.

Irritable Mother said...

Yes, LORD! Please use Lisa's mess to make a message of HOPE.
You are not surprised by this diagnosis. Cancer did not come upon Lisa's body because You were turned away and not paying attention to her.
You are good, God, and everything You do is good. We know we can trust You because You are faithful. All the time!
And so we praise You, our holy, perfect Father!
God, please grow Lisa's faith through this storm. Please use her and this circumstance for Your glory. Yes, help her to make the most of every opportunity, as she will encounter so many people through this journey with breast cancer.
LORD, I pray You will show Lisa Your power - as You calm her, as You heal her, as You use her. Please strengthen her voice, that she may proclaim Your goodness all the days of her life.
I'm asking it in the wonderful, powerful, beautiful, matchless Name of JESUS.
Amen and amen!

Shanda said...

Lisa,
So many have shared the immediate sentiments of my heart. You are so absolutely correct that satan often attacks at the very points where God is able to use you most. I pray in the fear-filled, human, emotional moments that you experience that God will bring you back to that truth and comfort you with His love and His purposes.

I am praying that His divine arms will carry you through. That He would redeem this for His glory and allow you and your family to rejoice in the work of His hands.

This Scripture came to mind:
"...When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the Lord will lift up a standard against him and put him to flight [for He will come like a rushing stream which the breath of the Lord drives]." Isaiah 59:19

May the Spirit of the Lord lift up a standard against him and chase satan and his minions off in the mighty name of Jesus!!

Standing with you in prayer now. Will continue to even in moments when you need to sit back down and hold onto the row bars of the jeep when things get bumpy on this ole' safari ride of life.

Love and prayers sweet sister!

Sallye said...

Praying for you Lisa, if you do not know her or have not met, let me introduce you to my friend Bev her blog is http://beverly-brandon.blogspot.com/

Please read her older entry, she is recovering from breast cancer and can give you huge amounts of information, compassion, and support.

Please please drop all sugar and processed food from your diet this very instant. Sugar and starch in all it's processed and unprocessed forms are a big feeder of cancer cell. Make every effort to find you a nutristional onocologist sorry for the spelling as quickly as possible. Bev was blessed and got to use the same one Lance Armstrong used.

Praying for you, knowing that God is equiping you to walk this walk, win this battle, and give Him all the glory.

Brian, Steph, Jada and Kiva Lee said...

ok...Lisa, you are brave. I mean that prophetically as you move forward. I am convinced that as you place your hope so beautifully in Him, you will NOT be put to shame, but will be victorious. Psalm 71 comes to mind for you.
My heart sank and I felt, like all of these blogging friends, like I have been punched in the stomach...I hate cancer. And we know that God hates it infinitely more. He is your defender and rescuer. He is FOR you and I am so glad to learn from you in this. My prayers are with you for sure.

Ang baylis said...

You inspire me, Lisa Smith. You did before you heard those two words and now it's on a new level. You can know that there is a friend up in Michigan who is praying for the doctors, your husband, your children, your parents and especially for you. My tears come from your faith, that you look at this is an opportunity to reach more people who need to know and trust Him and that you are willing to do whatever it takes to glorify God. I'm also praying this mess becomes your message. Isaiah 41:9-10... is perfect. He looks so beautiful on you, Lisa! Thank you!
So much love,
Angie xoxo

susan west said...

dear lisa, i am sorry that this has happened to you. you have such an amazing countenance and your smile is always beaming. i am certain that God is faithful and He hears all the prayers that are being lifted up on your behalf. We will be praying for you, Andrew, the children, your family, and friends, and YOU!!
"What time I am afraid, I will put my trust in You". Ps.56:3

Sing4joy said...

I came over from the SAFARI too... Two things:
1.You have already glorified God through this. Just take stock of your comment section thus far.
2.Breast cancer is dumb.

Nana Jul said...

Lisa,
I am saddened by the words you had to hear, but your determination and your trust in OUR VERY GINORMOUS GOD is very evident in your words. His message through you will go forth! You are being lifted & surrounded with Fervent prayer for you,your family & doctors!
Look at all the "newbies" the Lord has brought to you(to pray) even before you knew. He knew. The Daniel study, you weren't going to do, but did. Hmmmmm....
Isa 65:24 Before they call I will answer, while they are still speaking, I will hear.
So many praying God's word over you and your family! It will not return empty but accomplish what He desires and achieve the purpose for which it was sent! Isa. 55:11
Jer 23:29 "Is not my Word like fire," declares the LORD, "And like a hammer that breaks a rock into pieces?"
Standing in battle with you.
Love,
Julie

Susan Hilton said...

Satan tried to quiet you with vocal issues yet you are touching others through your blog. God will not allow you to be silenced! God shows you a way.
You are in our thoughts and prayers!

Carol Joy said...

Lisa I was just going to say that you ARE using your voice, and looked at the comments and of all things my very own sister had already said that (Sonja)! So that goes double for us!! Your voice on this very post today will reach farther than you will ever know with your honesty....your human fears...and taking those fears right into the arms of God to lean on HIM from day one to get you through this trial....thank you for your open sweet heart and believe me you have already spoken with your voice bringing about more prayer than you know, this very day!!!! God gave you this voice, HE IS FAITHFUL!!!! PRAYING FOR YOU!!!!!
xxxxxxx
Carol Joy

Joyful said...

Lisa, as I was transcribing Wendy's video tonight she talked about times when we can't perceive what is happening, but we can still believe. This post is already a testimony to anyone who reads it as you share your trust in Him through this unexpected journey where He is calling you to trust Him.

He loves you my friend. As God said to Gideon, "Go with the strength you have..." It's not "in" your own strength, but "with" the strength of the one who walks each step with you.

Hugs and prayers,
Joy

Jennifer said...

Hello Lisa,

I'm new to your blog and well not quite sure how I got here BUT more importantly, I'm here! Reading your blog and looking at your pictures, I can't believe this, but I believe we went to the same middle school. (SH) It always seems scary to "hear the word cancer" in any relation. Right now, I'm believing and praying for your complete earthly healing!

God is amazing and this is just a gentle reminder of how small His world really is.

Blessings to you and your precious family,

His Love Extended--Julie Gorman said...

May the love of God continue to surround you and your family. May you feel His strength and power. May your faith continue to grow as God shows you a greater side of His goodness and mercy...May your testimony bare much fruit. Our God is amazing...praying He heals you miraculously!

Bernie said...

Lisa, my heart is heavy as I write this.....I wanted to comment last night but was numb with shock and pain for you.....but that was last night and this is now....you will make it through this Lisa, I just know you will.
I had Stage IV Breast Cancer that had spread to my lymp nodes, I had surgery, chemo and radiation which finished in 2002. Today I am cancer free....you will be too sweetie, I know your faith will never waiver and I pray you will take every advantage the medical profession offers you. The journey has just begun and will be rough for a while but it will end and you will be healthy. Sending you everything I can, prayers, love, good wishes and many hugs.....you and your family are always in my heart and prayers.....Hugs

Smelling Coffee said...

Oh, Dear Lisa~ I stand in agreement with everything you asked us to pray and will be praying for you and your family as you walk this road with the Lord and your family. I am so very sorry... so sorry!

Praying...
Jennifer

Bev Brandon said...

Hey Sweet Girl! I heard from Annette yesterday morning and went to my knees for you. I prayed the verses in Genesis and Exodus that have come to stir my heart in this past month & I'll give you a few. But first I want to say that I am so sorry! After going through cancer and horrific abuse in my lifetime, I look at things a little different than most. His LOVE never allows an ounce more of suffering unless it is "to achieve the well-being of the beloved." Wrestle with God over this. It was HIS SEVERE MERCY that continues to put me in touch with what scares me to pieces. I am finding a Rest I've never known nor could have. Cancer is an intruder (you know the verse in James about welcoming intruders) but a pathology report doesn't change anything---it's just information to go after. There are no words to bring deep peace unless He stirs, He moves. And I believe that He is already doing that for you. It's a difficult lonely road and He is saying to you in Exodus 17:6 -"I'm going to be present for you, Lisa." Let me share a couple of the verses I prayed for you and will continue: Exodus 14:14 Stand still and God, would you please fight this battle for Lisa? And what will that mean for you to "let go" of? Exodus 15:26 HE will be your HEALER in this wilderness. Gen 1:2 Your God is hovering over your darkness to turn it into Light. Gen 21:19 Your God will open your eyes to see water in your wilderness. Gen 32:7 When we panic like Jacob did in this verse, may we depend only on you God and Gen 39:2 that says that God will be with us whether it's in a palace or a prison if we let HIM. Exodus 16:15 We have no idea sometimes of God's provision this day, Lisa---may HE open your eyes to see what it is. And I'll end again with Exodus 17:6 HE will be present for you and you will find HIM even in this. You already have. Call me when you can 817.915.6769.

Lelia Chealey said...

Oh Lisa! Through my tears I just read your post. A few weeks ago Lysa T. spoke at a women's conference I attended. One thing she talked about was about King Jehoshaphat(?) in 2 Chronicles 20. She told us that we need to send our prayers and praises ahead of us to do the battle for us. So I am sending praises and prayers ahead of us Lisa! I say "us" because you will not walk this alone my friend. All of us bloggy girlfriends may not be there with you in person, but we will be praying up a storm over you.
I love you and will pray and praise!!
Love,
Lelia

Laura MacCorkle ... said...

Lisa, I am so sorry to hear this, my friend.

Thank you for letting us know how we can pray specifically for you and your family right now.

"The LORD is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation."

Beth@Not a Bow in Sight said...

Lisa,
I have no words. You are in my prayers sweet friend.

Marcella said...

Hey Safari Sister, I am praying for you. Marcella

Lora said...

Just stopping by for visiting and after reading the current posts, I scrolled quickly through your notes.

I am storming the heavens on your behalf
LORD give Lisa back her voice and laugh
Over Lisa, I speak LIFE, HEALTH and PEACE
Your healing streams of mercy LORD, release
LIFE, Health, Peace.