About a month ago I found a lump in my breast. I have found other lumps, have had them examined, viewed and squished on and nothing. So I wasn't too concerned. I saw the doctor. He wasn't too concerned. But just to be safe he had me go get all kinds of pictures made. Radiologist looked at the pictures last week. Doctor called yesterday morning. Radiologist needs more information. The biopsy is at 8:30 this morning.
If you are close to me, related to me, one of my best friends or a prayer partner, please accept my apologies you are finding out this way. I realized yesterday that the more I talked about this the more opportunity fear had to sink its vicious claws deep into my mind, heart and soul. So I stopped giving life (as my friend Jenn says)to the fear by speaking words like cancer, death and fear. And I started giving life to things like health, healing and hope.
Today I'm asking you to pray for me and I'm going out on a limb and asking you to leave a comment, email, text or Facebook for me if you are praying because I need to hear that encouragement today. In order to squish fear, I know I must build faith. One way I build my faith is by praying with others. Hearing their belief builds mine. I know this blog has a community of readers who pray and who hold one another up when need be. I know some of you have been in my shoes and some of you have even walked the dark road called cancer. I need to hear from you.
I promise to keep you in the know because I intend to come right back here and praise God for his goodness no matter what kind of report I get.
Yesterday I opened my Bible to Psalm 27 and haven't closed it yet.
A David Psalm
1 Light, space, zest— that's God!
So, with him on my side I'm fearless,
afraid of no one and nothing.
2 When vandal hordes ride down
ready to eat me alive,
Those bullies and toughs
fall flat on their faces.
3 When besieged,
I'm calm as a baby.
When all hell breaks loose,
I'm collected and cool.
4 I'm asking God for one thing,
only one thing:
To live with him in his house
my whole life long.
I'll contemplate his beauty;
I'll study at his feet.
5 That's the only quiet, secure place
in a noisy world,
The perfect getaway,
far from the buzz of traffic.
6 God holds me head and shoulders
above all who try to pull me down.
I'm headed for his place to offer anthems
that will raise the roof!
Already I'm singing God-songs;
I'm making music to God.
7-9 Listen, God, I'm calling at the top of my lungs:
"Be good to me! Answer me!"
When my heart whispered, "Seek God,"
my whole being replied,
"I'm seeking him!"
Don't hide from me now!
9-10 You've always been right there for me;
don't turn your back on me now.
Don't throw me out, don't abandon me;
you've always kept the door open.
My father and mother walked out and left me,
but God took me in.
11-12 Point me down your highway, God;
direct me along a well-lighted street;
show my enemies whose side you're on.
Don't throw me to the dogs,
those liars who are out to get me,
filling the air with their threats.
13-14 I'm sure now I'll see God's goodness
in the exuberant earth.
Stay with God!
Take heart. Don't quit.
I'll say it again:
Stay with God.
Remember I'd like to hear from you as I count my blessings!