I am at the beach. I heart the beach. I love sand, sea, surf and sun! But, today it is raining. Pouring really.
For the past couple of years the Lord has been taking me deep on a journey of brokenness. Not that life has dealt me tough suffering of any sort. I am healthy, have a great family and a relatively cushy life comparatively speaking.
Although I'm not sure I have really become any more broken than I already was, I am certainly learning to embrace the brokenness that has always been there. I have quit trying to hide a broken lady behind pretty clothes, cosmetics and "just fine" relationships.
Living in this fallen world has left me broken. Living in this fallen world will continue to touch me in unkind ways. My God is near to the broken. My God heals the broken.
My God became broken so that my brokenness would appear beautiful and useful to Him.
So today I am not disappointed in the rain that falls. I welcome His presence that comes riding on the wind and the refreshing that comes in the spring rain.
Rain was not in my plans for a beach vacation but it was in His plans and as the palm trees sway, almost to the point of brokenness, I see their beauty waving before my eyes. Had there been no wind, I might find myself eyes closed on the beach missing their very presence.
I find my own weakness become more visible in a storm. And when I am weak He is strong.
A few weeks ago God taught me this. I was in my kitchen one afternoon and He told me to grab a flashlight. I did. He said, "Turn it on." I did.
He said, "Does it work?" I had to turn it around and stare into the glass for a long time to see if the batteries worked because the house lights were on, the windows were open and the sun was shining.
He said, "Now turn the lights off." I did. The light became more visible. He said, "Go into the closet." I did. The tiny flashlight that was barely visible in the sunlit kitchen illuminated the entire closet.
The Lord spoke again, "That's why you've walked through darkness."
When we walk through darkness His light illuminates everything around us. The world needs His light to shine. If I never have problems large or small, those around me may not see His light shining brightly.
"In the same way, you should be a light for other people. Live so that they will see the good things you do and will praise your Father in heaven...God once said, "Let the light shine out of the darkness!" This is the same God who made his light shine in our hearts by letting us know the glory of God that is in the face of Christ. We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves." Matthew 5:16 & 2 Corinthians 4:6-7