Over the last couple of weeks, I have had the awesome privilege of meeting many wonderful ladies here in the blogosphere. I am on a journey through the Bible with them and hooked up with many more through Lysa, Renee and the GNO postings. I have just perused many, many fine blogs that tell of amazingly powerful stories and I truly sit in awe of what our Savior has done in your lives. I have been weeping for hours asking the Lord what seems like a zillion questions.
After reading Lysa's post last week the Lord began preparing my heart to hear his voice, you see I'm beginning to recognize his beckoning. That's when I decided to quit procrastinating and figure a way to go to hear her speak. God came near as I sought Him and worked miracles so I could leave town for an entire school/work day to be with Him. After Lysa's talk, I was truly feeling inspired. I was really feeling God's pull. You know the tug. The one that gives you hope that the dreams you have, the secret ones in the very deep places, the-ones-you-never-speak-aloud-because-you-just-don't-think-you-can-take-what-the-naysayers-have-to-say-dreams could actually become more than just dreams one day. And by naysayers, I mainly mean the enemy of my heart whose loudest insults occur in the silence of my mind and resound in the darkest depths of my soul. You can't. Why would you? Who would believe?
You see, I have a dream. I dream that God would use me. Just me. It's not that I'm special or even talented or even have anything to offer. I just have these words. Simple. Nothing profound. I have this story. Ordinary. Average, really. You see, I just want my life and my words and everything I do to SCREAM praises to my Rescuer. That would be the biggest honor imaginable. Truly.
As I began to spend time with these ladies, all I heard was how I couldn't do that, how my blog was so inferior and who would care anyway. Silly talk. But the talk I heard. I silenced it by taking every thought captive (2 Corinthians 10:5)and by birthing a new determination. A determination to share...here...with you...My Story.
Just like Job said,"I will teach you about God's power. I will not conceal anything concerning the Almighty. " Even if it embarrasses the mess out of me and leaves me soul bared, eyes red from weeping, hiding-behind-my-computer-screen scared, I will tell of God's mighty display of power in my life.
So for the next few Mondays...or until my story is over, I will share bits and pieces of it here...with you. There are a million ways my Rescuer has shown up just in time to give me life when destruction was certain. Many of these times have never been put into words anywhere but deep inside my heart. So read carefully and handle with care, my heart is fragile but I'm entrusting it to you, my faithful friends.
Because His love beckons me,